Self / Family

一步,一步

来到这已经有三个月半了;时间过得真快啊!我已经失业将近四个月了,但是却过得很充实。这段时间体验了自己前所未有的人生经历。从一开始,人生地不熟,朋友、亲人、工作、落脚的地方等,什么都没有到今天的成绩,我很开心,也很满足。

  1. 丈夫在第一个月后,找到了理想的工作,担起了家里的经济,而我就开始忙着处理大家的settlement
  2. 我找到了一间还不错的房间,(屋租有点贵),但,至少会在这里住到我找到工作后才搬家
  3. 拿到了政府的医药保卡,公民卡,也意味着所有公民该有的福利开始生效了
  4. 他考到加拿大的驾照了,这意味着我们也可以买车了;下订了自己要的车,买了车险,明天我们终于有腿了!而我的考试就在后天,拜托一定要过哦!
  5. 我被一间政府机构录取加入他们一年的培训!希望培训后,他们会安排一个工作给我,拜托拜托!
  6. 那天我去面试,地点:监狱!虽然因为我的security clearance一定不会通过而落选,但是这是一个不错的体验。

坚信:一步,一步慢慢的走,把基础打稳!以后的日子就好过啦!加油!

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Self / Family

整理,自己

在异国不知不觉已经步入三个月啦!

这段时间,一直在体验着自己从小梦想中要体验的生活 – 所谓的人生经验。

自己总是坚信 – 想要增强自己,唯有掉落在谷底才能蜕变。

小时候的生活

  1. 为了考上大学拿到奖学金而努力;
  2. 为了成为白领/高层而努力;

长大后实现了以上的梦想,却发现这些并不是自己想要的,然后选择离开。

离开了三个月的这段时间,太多太多的事情要去面对而导致前所未有的心情涌上心头。我并没有真正的去整理内心,直到最近在看”The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari”,让我顿悟。很喜欢里面的这一段话:

How am I aim to live?

1) I am doing experiment with my life and make a few mistakes than forego growth by refusing to step out of the confines of my comfort zone.

2) Forgive the mistake and move on. Be gentle to yourself. Experience comes from making mistakes.

看到了这段话,得到了一个结论:

长大后实现了以上的梦想,其实都是自己想要的,只是日常和忙碌的生活作息蒙蔽了自己的心灵,然而选择离开。在整理好自己的内心后,接下去要做的就是在这里打好基础,然后一步一步去实践小时候的梦想!一但任务完成,我的新旅途就开始了!

p/s:

  1. 停,看,听 真的很重要!它让你知道自己究竟想要的是什么
  2. 休息是为了走更长远的路,所以有时停下来不是一件坏事
  3. 去创造你想要的人生

 

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坚持,胜利

看见的自己的祖国终于改朝换代了,

好激动!我在这儿都哭了;这一刻成为了历史,可是我却没有在那里与大家一起见证这一刻。

93岁的他,成了世上最老的领袖!从小到大,我都非常敬仰他。

想起了那些年大家高喊2020宏愿;

想起了那些年他在大学的讲座;

想起了那些年他打造了国油;

想起了那些年我的努力,得到了国油奖学金;

想起了那些年我在他打造的地方工作;

一切回忆涌上心头。

因为政府的腐败,

我不想我的下一代在这样的地方成长,

我选择离开,

现在的他,竟然做到了!

离2020宏愿还剩一年半,

你们加油!

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好久,不見

不知不覺,來到這個地方也有17天了,終於抵達了那個自己夢寐以求的地方。

環境的確優美,交通的確方便,東西的確也很便宜;當地人也很隨和。

折騰了兩個星期,重要的東西大致上都搞定了,也讓我們找到了一個可以住比較的長的棲息地;

接下來的任務就是要重新考車和找工作。

加油!!!

Self / Family

失败,成功

“失败乃是成功之母”这句谚语,是我们常听到的。

最近,读到一篇文章叙述着作者不赞同家人告诉他“失败乃是成功之母”的说法。相反,他却认真的思考为什么失败是成功之源,和两者之间存在的关系。从中我了解到,失败是没有恶意的,也无法避免;而失误是可以预防的。从失败中,可以让我们看到希望和未来;从失误中,感受到一种迫切的需要去建立自我反省的意识。而日常生活中的事情,应该被看成是失败或者是失误呢?

失败可以领导我们,决定接下来的风景;失误却是自身因素造成。作为人类,我们很容易犯错,但很少人能改变自己,因为大家都害怕失败。不失败,就等于什么都不做,不失败,就失去了为人的意义。成功的反面并不是失败,而是什么都不做。看到这一点,知道自己接下来要干什么,考虑什么,改正什么,这才是最重要的。

在此,我非常感谢公司的主管一直让我尝试失败(不让我离开我原本的职位)而导致我会有离开的行动。我不知道自己的未来会是如何,但是我会永远保有支持失败的勇气和挑战精神,不丢失那份改正失误的坦率心境。

加油!

 

 

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邁進,目標

這是今年想要做的事,既然第一步都踏出去了;就應該慢慢的走著下去。最近,以前合作過的同事們,知道我離職了;每個都拉著我一起跟他們去吃東西。

選擇性的跟一些(要好的上司)說我移民了;其他的我沒有跟他們特別提起自己是因為夢想而離開,只是說,想要建立自己的家庭;然後照顧好自己的身子、所以他們一致認為我為了愛情而辭職,好偉大哦!其實不排除,這也是其中一個原因。結婚太久了,是時候應該跟另一半住在一起。

看著他們每個人都有自己的方向;很開心,也許自己有太多negative的朋友,而導致之前一直在掙扎。離開,也許也會是一個好的開始。

Self / Family

共享生活 – 三个院子

最近江苏卫视推出了“三个院子”这个节目,看着节目的第一集,仿佛看见自己的未来;

还记得刚开始交往的时候;曾经跟他说过,我想要买一间别墅或是在海边买一块地,

把它装修成美美哒;是自己的家,也让背包旅客来度假;概念也是共享生活:)

每天结识不一样的友人,聆听他们在世界各地的足迹与故事;

那种感觉好棒!这就是我想要的生活!

简单,不复杂;与世无争,是我一直以来的理想!

虽然不晓得这个梦想几时会实现,可是我会一直朝着这个方向前进。

加油!

 

Self / Family

How to be Yourself?

Recently, I have been having this dream. In the dream, I killed myself and reborn after a few minutes. I was impressed with these and I googled. It could be a symbolic sign that things are ending, changing and new beginnings will start afresh. It is a symbolic association with the end of how you used to be. Sometimes life is very difficult to create what you want.

Maybe my self-conscious is hinting me to be Myself. Why do I say so? Let me kick start with a short introduction of myself and my family. I was born in the early 90’s. I am the eldest in my family. My parents (especially my mum) are very traditional. Everything that we do or choose, we must follow her protocol. I interpreted those actions as control freak.

When I was young, I used to think to become a teacher, doctor, writer, sportswoman, author, and artist. She told me that, these jobs were not going to earn much (except  for doctor) and she will disagree and will not recognize me anymore if I choose to be one of them. End up, I choose to be an Engineer (because of full scholarship given).

I felt imbalance especially she treated me and my siblings differently. I was chosen to be a sportswomen back in my primary and secondary school. However, she asked me to turn down the offer as she did not have leisure time to fetch me after the practice. She asked me to join those society which suit her convenient time. I always told myself it’s okay, I just need a society to fulfill those requirements.

I used to write a diary last time because I wanted to be an author. What she did was, she read my diary every night. If she was mentioned in the diary, I will be scold or nag the next day. End up, I don’t write diary anymore because I don’t want to let her know what I am thinking and I don’t want to be scold. Besides, no matter what I did, she will always has negative comments. Hence, in order for me to make my life peacefully, I started to lock myself in no where.

Finally, it is the time for me to back to basics. But I was lost. I don’t know where to start from. Mr Google gives me some guidance. This will be my tasks.

  1. Think about all the times in your life when you felt you had to be “on,” when you couldn’t be honest with how you really felt, when you chose to pretend to be someone you weren’t. What’s the cause of that?
  2. If I were to ask you to describe yourself, could you talk about your strengths and weaknesses with confidence? (In other words, do you know who you really are?)
  3. Are you always the same in how you act regardless of the situation you’re in?
  4. When you are around others, do you ever feel strained and uncomfortable and find it hard to relax?
  5. Has anyone ever told you that they thought you were one way, but then when they got to know you better, realized you were another way?
  6. Has anyone ever commented on how you act differently around various people?
  7. Do you ever act like you don’t care what others think, but deep down it really stings when others judge or reject you?
  8. Do you ever pretend to like someone you really don’t?
  9. What might some of your masks be? The “I’ve got it all together” mask? The “I’m a victim mask”? Think about different situations in your life—work, school, church, home, with friends, with family, etc. What mask might emerge during those times?
Self / Family

随遇而安

今天翻回自己以前的部落格(已经关闭);其实里面的文笔真的非常像顺源昨天跟我在电话上提到的我。他问我为什么年纪轻轻的,世界观总是“悲观,挣扎和迷茫呢?”其实我也不晓得原因。因为这个提问,我还真的坐下来静心思考。

也许因为约束、也许越来越少观照自己的内心、也许被伤害、也许发生了许多事情导致我不再对世界抱有任何的期望、也许太在意世人的眼光。很多的也许;我只能说;答案,还是得靠我自己去寻找。

我很谢谢他在这个时候提点了我;因为我真的迷失了很久!在此,跟你说声谢谢。

接下来,就让我跟大家分享一篇我觉得自己应该要有的态度 – 随遇而安。

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